It's been a while since I updated this. I know kind of sad. But I know no one really reads this anyway so I'm free to say whatever I want and not worry about someone getting mad at me or whatever. I finally reached level 75 on FFXI so one goal down tons to go. Kind of been having a tough time lately in real life. Seems my dad my have cancer and I really don't know what to say about it. It's like what happened with mum all over again, when I heard she didn't have much longer I was more in shock then anything else. I guess I'm feeling like that again.

My mother's passing wasn't an easy thing for me it took weeks maybe months till I actually moved on from it. I think it's cause you feel like your mother is like a shelter and now you start to begin to understand that it's starting to disappear from you. Maybe that's what I felt back then. Anyway a certain "friend" Has been making things hard for me for months. She knows who she is and she's enjoying every single minute of it and it's really getting on my nerves. I won't say her name here cause I really don't want people going after her and then having her "lover boy" after me claiming I did this and that when he never EVER gets his facts straight.

I paid more off my old internet bill, so like got $1500 to go or something like that. Oh and my sister is having another baby so this will be her fourth child. She found out it's going to be a girl. So going to be a uncle for the 4th time.... I sort of don't know what to think about this due to the fact I don't expect to be around much. I think I just have a lot on my mind to focus on. My friend Peter ask me to go live with him and his friend in Sydney.... I really don't know what to do about that either. My foot on the other hand is still sorta dead but I can walk a little better now.

One thing that has been on my mind lately is if I should just disappear offline for a few weeks and see who really misses me. I know a few people that said they would but somehow I doubt that because they always seem to talk to me other when they need something and never talk to me just to chat. It's sad how people pretend to be your friends when in the end they just use you instead.

SE finally released details on FFXIV, really looking forward to it because it's going to be my comfort zone since I know a certain few people won't be there. Hoping to get my connection up and running before the beta is released for it. (September I believe) Anyway I'm going to go back on FFXI and see who needs my help in my Linkshell ciao